Mess up my bed with me...

I met Kanger at Covent Garden and we had that awkward he-went-in-for-a-kiss-on-the-lips-while-I-went-for-the-cheek moment and we laughed and then hugged. He took me to a Mexican restaurant that he said was pretty good and that he wanted my opinion since he didn't know any better. We ordered margarita's and caught up with each other with great conversation.

We had time to kill before our comedy club adventure at midnight and grabbed some drinks at the Porterhouse. They had a live band so we sang along and held up fake microphones to each other. The song "Summer of 69" came on and he was like who is this Bryan Adams and I looked at him like he was crazy and I was like um no this is Bruce Springsteen, with 100% confidence. I could tell he was a little weary of this proclamation so we kept play fighting that he was right and I was wrong and vice versa. Kanger finally googled it on his phone and we wagered that if I was right then I would get to pick a movie and if he was right he would get to pick a movie. (Points for plans in the future). Of course I was wrong so he gets to pick the movie!

The comedy club started and we kept looking at each other at each punch line but I could tell he was totally trying to make a move, like hold hands or arm around shoulders. Too cute. Intermission came and we went up to the bar and while we were waiting to get our drinks he grabbed my hand and was very touchy feely. When we sat down we held hands, very nice!

The show ended at 2am so we went to a bar nearby that stayed open until 3am. We danced a little and the conversation continued to flow. We finished our drinks and were being ushered out at closing and ended up somehow kissing in front of the club. A gypsy taxi driver stood thisclose to us while we were mugging down to ask if we needed a taxi. We thought this was hilarious! We were going to grab some food at the Burger King but we got distracted with all the kissing and I came up with the plan of getting room service at my hotel instead which Kanger was totally up for.

In my room, I showed him some pics of fam and friends that I have framed on my desk and then we started kissing while we waited for the room service. It was like 4:30 when room service came and we ate and then started kissing again. We had the whole meaningful look in your eyes while running your fingers through your hair type kisses and there was grazing of the boobs but nothing more which was fine because we are going slow and I think later it will mean sooooo much more.

We finally went to sleep at 6am and I could actually sleep with him in my bed. (I have trouble sleeping with anyone in my bed until I'm used to them being there). He's a good spooner, too. We finally woke up at noon and just talked and kissed and traced each others outline with our fingertips until 5pm. He totally missed watching part of the Australia vs. South Africa cricket game but told me I was worth it! Swoon. We hugged and kissed more while he got ready to leave, like we couldn't get enough of each other!

He had an engagement party to go to on Saturday and I had a friend's house party to go to so we didn't hang out on Saturday night and he had to work today. But future plans were talked about: going to see a rugby match together, him teaching me cricket, betting at horse races, playing tennis and of course going to the movies.

This is the start of something good and I have the beard burn (on my face) to prove it!

Save the Date

When I texted* Kanger back about getting together I said that I had a crazy schedule this week and for him to let me know what days would work for him and we would take it from there. I had to show him that I actually have a life too, because I actually do have a life here. It backfired and he told me he was free the majority of the week and for me to let him know. So I told him I was free on Wednesday or later in the week on Friday (which is true).

Now I didn't intentionally do this, but it turns out to be a very good way to see how much time a guy wants to spend with you. Wednesday for just dinner and drinks and then call it a night because we would have to go to work in the morning or Friday, dinner, drinks and partying until 4am option again. Kanger said Friday would be great. Let's hope so....

*All communication through texting-awwweeessssooommmeee! I'll defend him that he's been working late again this week and he can only get to me through text. I just hope we won't have to text our conversation to each other from across the table on our date. You never know...

Two steps WAY back (updated)

I think I'M in phase out. I'm totally getting the brush off from Kanger. Granted last Sunday he told me of his crazy weekend plans of a coworkers birthday, a pub crawl starting at 10am in the morning on Saturday and his bosses barbecue (not sure which day that was on). But still, wouldn't you think he would have tried to make plans with me for sometime in the future if he was still interested. This is what went down:

I texted Kanger back on Friday, before going out:
Hey! i've only seen flats online....no appointments yet. sounds like crazy days with those kind of hours. brutal. do you have to go in again this weekend?

And I received this back from him like 6 hours later:
Hi...unbelievable i worked until 8:15 tonight and i'm at a pub near work for a few beers...i'm starting to fall asleep. I at least don't have to go in this weekend and next week should be early nights. I hope you have a great nite

So I texted him back to show I was supportive of his late hours:
Hi! That is unbelievable... At least you can sleep in tomorrow....but don't you have some crazy pub crawl in the morning? I'm out for drinks with friends right now...hope you don't fall asleep on your way home! (he has a problem with this and tends to miss his stop) that would not be a good end to your hellacious week...

The boy waited almost 24 hours to answer my simple question:
Hi....i decided to forgo the pub crawl and watch rugby on tv instead today. I've got to go to a birthday party tonight. Have you started in on the st. paddy's day festivities?

At this point I was tired of asking him a question by texting (my least favorite forms of communicating while in the early stages or in this case, last stages of dating someone), and then feeling like a dumbass when he didn't respond, so I kept it simple and light:
hi...just got back from oxford after spending the day...on my way to start in on the festivities at an irish pub of course. have fun and don't forget to wear green so you won't be pinched....

Needless to say he didn't text back. He has to know that I'm not waiting around for him and hello? he still hasn't returned my call from Wednesday night when I called him back. Just flipping text messages that you can't read what the other person is feeling or thinking. Something obviously happened between Wednesday night and now, but I'm done playing games. If he wants to date me he will call, if not then I'd like to know somehow, so that I can move on to the next one.

*Update: I woke this Monday morning to find a text from the indecisive Kanger, sent at 10pm last night, saying:
hi hope you've had a good weekend. i've had a relaxing weekend after the hectic week at work. this week should be back to normal. enjoy the rest of your nite and we'll have to catch up again soon. good nite.
WTF? So relaxing that I didn't factor into it? I just don't get it but I guess it's game back on...again.

Stupified...again (updated)

I thought he was different, but I guess not.

Kanger and I as you know spoke on the phone of Sunday night. We emailed during the day on Monday, we texted on Tuesday night (his initiating) and I got a voicemail from him on Wednesday night. I was watching the Scotland vs. Spain soccer match with some coworkers so I missed his call but gave him a ring back when I got home about half an hour later, only to find his phone go straight to voicemail. I wasn't expecting voicemail so I left a slightly lame message (but not that lame) and told him to give me a call back when he had a chance. Nonchalant. casual.

Silence and crickets.

Not only did I not get a return call back last night, I didn't get a single email during the day or text at any time yesterday. WTF? So when I got up to use the loo early this morning, I checked my phone to find no dice in any shape or form, thus his number was deleted from my phone. A wise blogger once said "Never make someone a priority who is only willing to make you an option". And right now I feel like I'm an option. I wanted to make plans to see him this weekend but I guess I just don't fit in with his schedule. I've now made other arrangements but it's all still disheartening.

I just don't get it. Things were going so well but now he's up and pulled the infamous disappearing act. My favorite. Just when you're on cloud 9, your circus gets shut down by the fucking opposite sex.

*Update: After I had lunch with a coworker today, outside in the beautiful sunshine, I got a text from a number (not a name). Of course it was him telling me that he's had a crazy couple of days with work and that he worked until 11pm last night. Which is a legitimate excuse since he has had crazy hours since I've been talking to him with deadlines, etc. Whateves. I believe I'll text him back right before I go out to dinner/drinks with friends and then not check my phone for the rest of the night....because you know I have plans, buddy! Plus, if he wants to see me, he can flipping CALL! I'll tell him my plans and if he wants to meet me wherever I am, he can, if not, so be it. I'm still pissed-but still want to see him...is that wrong?

Sealed with a Kiss(es)

Okay...so Saturday Kanger and I met up at Leicester Square to watch a movie and have a quiet relaxing evening together. He had a rough week at work and I was still getting over my jet lag so a movie sounded great. He looked prec in his popped collar polo and I made sure to wear my new zebra flats...not sure if I mentioned the height factor...I've bypassed it by wearing flats, which are obviously more comfortable. He's about 4 inches taller than me, around 5'10"ish.

We agreed to see The Good Shepperd and grabbed a drink before it started. I was a little nervous at the beginning and he was too but soon we were making each other laugh! Then we sat through 3 hours of crap. I'm still scratching my head about the whole movie. After the movie we decided to grab another drink since it was around 11:30pm. We were standing in line to go into a pub when one of his friends texted him to tell him they were next door. We ended running into them on the street, where his crazy friend hugged and humped him and then turned to look at me and asked, "Kango, who's the blonde?". So embarrassing but we had a good laugh about it. I was introduced and they all said my name like "Tixas". Love the accents!

We all went to the Walkabout, an Australian "club" that stays open until 3am. I had a feeling it was going to be a late night, but I didn't care! Kanger's friends were hilarious and I really got along well with them. We were all dancing and singing along to the music. SexyBack came on and I took out a button with JT's pic on it that I had gotten Kanger at the concert in Houston. We had an inside joke at the Killers concert about how he called them badges and I called them buttons. You should have seen his face. It was classic-I think I got huge brownie points for that one!

After round #4 of drinks we all migrated to the actual dance floor and had a blast. About 3 times Kanger and I got really close to kissing- remember it had just been pecks before- but we were always interrupted by the energetic patrons bumping into us. His friends left at around 2am but we stayed and shut the place down. We grabbed our coats and ventured to the nearest Subway to get a bite to eat. Surprisingly I wasn't wasted having not had dinner, just a little buzzed. Our conversation had been flowing all night and it continued after we ate and ventured out in the streets to look for a cab for me. This ended up taking another hour. We found a spot that seem to have the most traffic of cabs and that's when it happened-We had our first kiss(es) right on Oxford Street and Regent Street. It was really nice and he's a good kisser actually! We moved inside a doorway to kiss some more for a while and then we saw a cab come our way. The kissing would have continued but since we had plans to meet up to go shopping at 2pm the next day we parted ways. My head was spinning.

I couldn't sleep because I kept playing the night over and over in my head. I was so giddy! My undereye circles paid the price for that one... I met him at Picadilly Circus and the shopping began. We took a break for some lunch and had a really great conversation where we learned about each others family, friends, etc. We headed to Selfridges where he got some shoes (of his company-remember he has discounts!). That boy can shop! It was nice for a male to ask my opinion on if he should purchase something. Sort of like being a girlfriend, but not quite. We went to my department where I tried on some Gucci purses and some of his company's shoes. They were super cute! He said he had some vouchers that I could use but I didn't want to take advantage. We can go shopping again...

We kissed goodbye after the shops closed and he said he would "call me later on", which I said okay but in my mind I was thinking what does that mean? Later in the week, later in the year? AHHHH. To my surprise he called later that night and we had fun banter and told each other goodnight.

Kanger is just so refreshing. Things are moving at a slower pace than I'm used to and I'm actually happy about that. I don't want to be hurt again and if taking our time to see if things feel right, then so be it. But I can't stop thinking about him and that scares me (since I haven't felt this way in a couple of months...).

Jet Lag

I'm alive but still a little jet lagged from my trip home and tired from the weekend with Kanger...updates to come!

I had a great time in Houston. It was hectic but great to see all of my friends and family. Justin was fantastic. One of the best concerts I've been to. ever. Timbaland brought the house down which was one of my favorite parts and I can't wait until his new CD comes out in April. I'm all moved out of my apartment in Houston and am now setting up a bank account and searching for a flat here. Exciting times!

More later on the dating front....